Life is funny...

Just when you think you've got everything figured out, life turns your world upside down like a dollar-store snowglobe and everything is chaos and you count down the seconds till everything settles and you can once again try to make sense of it all.

moving on

Looks like my fears were real. I've erred on the side of too forward without actually having the courage enough to be straightforward. So once again, another "option" misunderstood, miscommunicated, missed. At least here I have an opportunity to carry out another resolution (since I've already fallen short of all my other ones): to let go and move on. Realistically, what have I lost? A little pride, but no real harm done. Well, perhaps a friendship may have suffered a very little, but I believe time will prove to be a satisfying balm. All in all, I'm disappointed things turned out the way they did, but in the grand scheme of things, it hardly matters. It's just the price to pay for being overeager. Let's hope I don't make the same mistake again.

le sigh

I confuse myself sometimes. I wonder if I'm too forward and obvious, or if I'm too subtle and distant. And right now, in my resolution to be more courageous, I can't help but fear I've erred on the side of being too forward. Just once, I'd like to get this right.

On another front (but also related to courage), I'm tired of being walked on and taken advantage of. I'm really tired of being stood up. I tried to tell myself at first that I was just being sensitive and overthinking things, but enough is enough. There is such a thing as common courtesy. Let me know if you can't make plans. It's only 30 seconds of your time "wasted" to give me a call, rather than several hours of mine waiting for your call.